With life, things inevitably change. Our dolls are no exception. Lawrence is lost to me now. I could not reconnect with him in the way that I needed to. So, I removed his original face, which covered Doc's original face. On one of his spare bodies, I removed Tristan's original face and have stored them in a memory box.
I have made new faces for all but one of the spare bodies and have attached them. I am waiting to see whom they will become.
I think a lot of this has to do with the fact that I am no longer interested in Joaquin Phoenix, and am now quite interested in the dashing Timothy Dalton. I have been watching his films and shows lately and am completely smitten.
Instead of the billionaire CEO, I am beginning to prefer a Southern Gentleman, or an English one.
Saying goodbye to Lawrence has not been easy and I have been grieving. But I cannot move forward to what is best for me if I keep holding onto what I knew a couple of years ago was gone.